No Matter What

The past couple of weeks, overall, have been pretty good. Of course there have been times here and there where I get stressed but the past 24 hours especially have put me almost over the edge. And I will be honest – it is so easy to get on the “why me” pity pot and to room there for awhile.

And isn’t the “pot”, although cold and lonely, somewhere that we can get stuck? How come my husband couldn’t find his dream job in the city where we currently live? How come my 17 mo old all of a sudden isn’t sleeping for hours and hours on end and I am emotionally and physically exhausted? How come I have to worry about the “safety” of my job because of some big things that are happening there right now?

How come…..if I allow it, my list could go on and on. What are your “How comes”?

But I know this negative thinking isn’t healthy and the other day I heard a song that really struck me and I was singing it to myself last night in the wee hours of the morning as I tried to comfort my youngest son. I hope it means as much to you as it does me…

The truth of all of this is that if I didn’t believe and trust that God was with me always….I couldn’t do this. It isn’t by my strength, but by His. So I can say that regardless how things in my life play out – I trust my God and love my God with all that I am. No matter what Lord…..

“No Matter What” by Kerrie Roberts

I’m running back to your promises one more time,
Lord that’s all I can hold on to,

I gotta say this has taken me by surprise,
but nothing surprises You.
Before a heartache can ever touch my life,

it has to go through Your hands,
and even though I,
I keep asking why, I keep asking why,

No matter what, I’m gonna love You,

no matter what I’m gonna need You,

I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain

but if not, if not, I’ll trust You,

no matter what, no matter what.

When I’m stuck in this nothing-ness by myself,

I’m just sitting in silence,

there’s no way I can make it without Your help,

I won’t even try it.

I know You have Your reasons for everything,

so I will keep believing, whatever I might be feeling,

God you are my hope, and You'll be my strength,

 

No matter what, I’m gonna love You,

no matter what I’m gonna need You,

I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain
but if not, if not, I’ll trust You,

no matter what, no matter what. 

 

Anything I don’t have You can give it to me,
but it’s ok if You don’t,
I’m not here for those things,
the touch of Your love is enough on its own,
no matter what I still love You

and I’m gonna need You

No matter what I’m gonna love You,

no matter what I’m gonna need You,

I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain

but if not, if not, I’ll trust You,
I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain,

but if not, if not, I’ll trust You,
no matter what no matter what no matter no matter what