Thursday, January 19, 2012

For those "what now Lord" moments

If you are friends with me on Facebook you may have already heard the news that today I was told that the position I had with a company I had worked at for 13 years was being outsourced, and that as of today I no longer had a job.

And just like that everything that I knew about my world stopped for just a moment. I was in shock really - not much to say, words failed me and I tried to reassure the HR person that had to tell me the news that I was going to be ok.

God has a plan in everything right?

I say that all the time to other people...but could I really believe it for myself?

This has been quite the past 18 months or so. First Dominic taking a leap of faith and moving to another state to start a job we felt he had been led to, to losing a best friend, to having our daughter and then finally after 8 months taking another leap of faith and moving to Marshall.

We finally felt like we were where we were supposed to be and that things would start looking up for our family. But Dominic's job was difficult to say the least. A tough and negative environment and it was wearing on us all.

Right before Thanksgiving Dominic's employment with the firm we had moved here for ended....for the better really - but here we were right before the holidays and he was without a job.

 God has a plan in everything right? You do right? I mean what now Lord??

And He did have a plan - one that we didn't see unfolding and the very next day Dominic had a new job, a company car and a fantastic group of people to work with. I heard him laugh, genuinely laugh for the first time in months that first week. And although he has had to "start over" in a sense....he is happy and we feel very blessed by his new employer.

And we started feeling like finally now maybe things would start looking up...again.

And then, out of the blue, I get the news I got today.

God has a plan in everything right? You do right? I mean what now Lord??

And although I have NO IDEA what is in store around the corner for me. I don't know when or where I might find a new job. I don't know if I can/will stay in banking or if I should be doing something different.

There is so much unknown right now and it could feel really scary. But I feel strangely at peace.

I don't know how God is working but I KNOW THAT HE IS!!

So in these "what now Lord" moments where do we turn??

I have to turn to His word and the truths found there....

Isaiah 41:10 "Fear not for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"

God knew about what would happen today before we moved to Marshall, God knows what my next job will be (I am hoping He clues me in sooner than later) and I trust fully in His timing.

I can't explain the peace I feel about all of this - but it is there. Do I wish this were different - absolutely!!  But because this is now my new path I move forward in faith.

So what now Lord I ask??

Fear not my daughter, fear not! - Those words whisper to me tonight, a soothing balm to my soul and I find rest in Him. Thank you Jesus for your provisions....I walk forward in faith - lead on!!

1 comment:

Kami said...

Oh sweetie - I am really sorry to hear this news! I am so amazed by your faith and your attitude about it, though. You are absolutely right in knowing that God has a plan for you, and I am praying that His plan will be revealed to you in the VERY near future!

Love you!

The Smith Family Journey

Follow by Email

Follow this blog with bloglovin

Follow on Bloglovin

Recent Visitors

Love (in)courage

Get Your Verse On!

Wild Olive

Love Gussy!

Maggie Whitley Gussy Sews

Are you a "Sunday"?

Praying for our kids

Designed by Munchkin Land Designs • Copyright 2011 • All Rights Reserved